O.K. So on Day 2 - can't look back now. I can't say, "I would be celebrating three weeks today" because that's not the current situation. SO. I am just going to breathe and reset and charge on.
I saw a saying on Instagram from LifeinDetox:
Are you anxious? Get out of the future Are you sad? Get out of the past.
Yes. Yes and more yes!
I went to my BBQ last night and it was fine. It was more than fine. A friend of mine actually confided in me that someone at work - at a 9:15 a.m. meeting said she needed a breath mint because "she smelled like alcohol." She said she had been out until 1 a.m. that morning and was really worried it would affect her career. She also was feeling guilty because she had said a few insensitive comments to her friend at the bar. I could see the pain and regret on her face. She couldn't enjoy last night because she was reliving the night before. I know how she feels and I want to try hard to work not to feel that way while also helping her...if she is open to it.
I think this may be an opportunity for her to shine and try to take a step away from the grips of alcohol. They are strong.
I also am going to commit to blogging more - because when I drank last Wednesday and Thursday, I hadn't blogged. I believe there is a connection there that I would like to further explore. Onwards and upwards friends.
And alcohol, watch out. I'm going to learn how to quit you. And I'm going to tell others in the process.